babies forever

you know, on some days, like today, i feel like i'm going to be changing diapers and nursing and burping and rocking forever and ever, world without end, amen.

i didn't sleep last night--my own fault, of course, but anyway--and then today miss r. was so fussy! i could NOT make her happy. she doesn't want to eat, doesn't want to sleep, won't burp, doesn't want the swing...

we were lying in bed, she's obviously exhausted, rubbing her eyes, and i'm staring at her as i'm nursing her, thinking "go to sleep. go to sleep. go to sleeeeep."

i'm trying the gas drops next. i was nervous to give them to her, she's only 11 weeks old, but i'm at the end of my rapidly fraying rope.

by the way, my four-year-old? has been on nickjr.com ALL DAY. i'm SUCH a good mommy.

and if anyone suggests that i should "enjoy this time while it lasts cuz it goes by so fast" i will seriously scream.